I realized today that I’ve let myself fall into that horrible trap of overthinking things. Which came while I was, uh, thinking.
In all honesty, I had no intentions of updating my blog today. I’m home sick (fever, chills, nausea and overall blech), but after a day full of work that involved lots and lots of moving parts and engaging people and hoping we can make deadlines, I started thinking about all the thinking I’ve been doing lately. Oh, that’s not to say there’s not any reacting going on. It’s there, and in full force, but the thinking is what’s making me a leeeeetle insane.
Maybe it’s my fever-addled brain, but as I was finishing up another conference call and trying to think about my book and how much writing hasn’t happened in the past week and how crappy I was feeling, I had one of those AHA moments where something clicked.
I’ve been overanalyzing.
See, I’m often a seat-of-your-pants person. I go with the flow and yeah, while I can plan with the best of them, I’m at my most comfortable when I handle situations as they occur. Which hasn’t made its way into my writing for the past five or six days.
For me, this is not good. I’ve let my brain take over for my creativity and emotion, and let logic dictate what’s good or bad, and what should be written or what should not even make it to the page. In the end, that kills storytelling. So, I’ve made the decision to let everything go and just GO. I’ll let my Right Brain have fun, let loose with my story, and probably end up with something a whole lot better that way.
Sorta like a zen habit — focus on the present and enjoy it. Because once you start thinking about what has to be or what should be, you miss out on all the really great stuff in your day. And, in my case, in my storytelling.
Hmm. I’ve never written while I had a fever. Maybe I should give that a try, even if only for fifteen minutes. I just might surprise myself with something really good.
If I can understand it in the morning.
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