I love meeting people and talking with people and hanging out with people.
But I REALLY love being alone.
It occurred to me recently, after a full day of work and spending all my time chatting and meeting and socializing, that there’s nothing better than kicking up my feet and just being by myself and all by myself.
I adore it. I crave it, in fact. See, I find peace in silence and solitude, and use that time to focus inward. To recapture my balance. Some people need to go-go-go all day with anyone and everyone they meet. They need to be with others morning, noon, and night, weekdays and weekends, filling all their time with human interaction and planning events with them.
Nothing wrong with that. It’s just not for me.
As I’m getting slightly older (emphasis on the word ‘slightly’), I’m discovering that there is too much noise around me. Some of it comes from being around people in general, but a lot of it comes from my feeling guilty for choosing not to mingle. My own internal voice that tells me I should meet with this person, I should get together with this other one, I should…well, you get the picture. And, for a while, I thought that maybe, maybe, I was turning into an introvert. But a recent get-together with friends reminded me that, nah, that ain’t happening any time soon.
So why this dichotomy?
I’m not so sure. I’m starting to wonder if I’m becoming the stereotypic author. You know, the person who sits in front of their computer or notebook any free chance they can get, burrowed in their own world while creating others, because it’s become a drug to them. Writing, for many writers like me, is something you crave. Because it’s a solitary job, I find that I’m also craving alone time. It’s also giving me a stronger sense of peace. It used to be that the idea of being alone was too scary to even imagine. Now? I can’t wait to get outside by the pool on a warm evening and curl up with my laptop. Or, better yet, leaving the laptop behind to just gaze up at the night sky. To enjoy being one with the world and everything beyond it.
What about you? Are you an extrovert that craves solitude, too? Or just someone that loves their quiet, private time? I’d love to know.
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